Bad Choices...

Blessed are you when people insult you and persecute you, and falsely say all kinds of evil against you because of me. Matthew 5:11

So i had one of those moments the other day that you read stories about, where you find yourself at a decision to either do what you know is right or what the people around you would prefer. And all of the really good stories are about the times when people choose the right thing even in the face of adversity. I really wish that was my story, but i am ashamed to say that is not the case. While on a church trip a man approached us as we were leaving a gas station and in need of some gas. My first thought was of course i can come help you get some gas, but the people around me immediately began to say we need to go, we don't have time. And the moment was there. The milliseconds that it took me to turn back to him seemed like forever but in the end the pressure beat me. With what i'm sure seemed like no hesitation at all i turned back to him and said "Sorry they say we have to go." Saying it like that made me feel a little better cause it was they not me, right? But i am just as much a part of the they. The whole way home i apologized to God over and over for not entertaining one of his angels and failing the test. Why do we do this?? Why do i do this?? But thank God that i am forgiven..